I really don't think I've ever felt so uninspired and down in my life as far as school goes. I've been out for nearly a weeks worth of school days now. The pain from the surgery has died down, but general stress and anxiety keeps me up until very late. I wake up tired and in pain (it's the worst in the morning.)

I missed a lot over the last 6 days, mainly just tests and quizzes. I didn't take any time off to really study - big mistake I'm sure - but being back at school has me feeling so unhappy and worried about every other class and the next few weeks and everything that will be due and everything that's expected of me. To me honest, I'm terrified that my grades are going to tank.

I feel so much more comfortable at home, where I can take things at my own pace. With such freedom, it's to be expected. I almost want to get out of school, take up home schooling. That won't happen though. It's just a thought.

So here I am, back in this little hellhole, exhausted and unprepared, worried for what the week and following weeks will bring. I don't want to do art and I don't want to be active. I just want to go home, curl up in a ball, and sleep until the weekend. Rinse and repeat for the rest of my life.

(Sorry for all the emoing in my recent posts. I've just been feeling so miserable and I need to vent.)

I'm spending the day relaxing. 75% chance of an art post before the night is out. nvm I'm so uninspired blah sad.


I got the wisdom teeth removed Friday. It was a surreal experience. I sat down in the dentist's chair, they put an IV into me, three minutes later they're telling me to get in a wheelchair to get down to the car because they're done. I didn't remember anything from the hour that had passed by - it was literally like I just blinked. I spent the rest of the day sleeping and watching TV.

Yesterday I had friends come over. In retrospect, I shouldn't have done this because it wore me out and I'm sure my dad now thinks I'm healthy as hell, but I hadn't seen any of them in a week or had a proper get together with them in well over two weeks. We spent 4 hours going around Chinatown, eating snacks and talking. We stayed up late watching movies - or at least, my friends did. I dozed through most of the movie watching. Slept until 2 today - something I don't like doing because I feel like I have no time to get anything else done before the day is through, especially Sundays.

But I told my teachers I'd be back at school Tuesday. I don't feel all that well even now, though it's probably just the pain meds. I'm scared to go back to school, honestly. Not that much work, but many many tests and quizzes, and a performance in theater (Greek theater = being very loud. I can barely open my mouth to talk, let alone yell.)

But until then,. I'm going to relax, study, and hope that my teachers are as nice to me when I get back as they were in their emails to me.

So I'm getting my wisdom teeth removed Friday. Consoltation is tomorrow at 2, so I'll probably go to school.

( TMI if you don't like stories of vomit )

So all I've really had to eat today is water and crackers. Mom made some rice and chicken broth that filled me up, and so far I haven't thrown anything back up. Tooth pain is pretty much gone (thanks to the Motrin?) and now I'm just waiting for the day to pass. Dad says I'm going back to school tomorrow, though I'll be taken out early. I'd be more into the idea if I felt like myself. Which I don't. It's weird.

So I pretty much spent most of the day falling asleep to some weird ambient radio station and then browsing the interwebs for the last 2 hours or so.

A little sad, because this week was supposed to by my first real game of D&D, but I'll live.

I'm taking a day off from school. I have wisdom teeth growing in - 4!! - and so we went to the dentist. I'll have to get surgery to remove all of them - 4!!!

But, as long as I'm home, I figured why not post the pictures I scanned last night. So here we go. 40 sketches of madness.



( LOTS more under the cut! )

Woo! That's all out of the way. Now onward to February!!

In 9th grade, I made my first Speakerdog. It was cute, and I planned on making more. I made one other, and then stopped.

2 years later, I somehow came across papecraft projects of all sorts of things I loved: Zelda, Nintendo, Pokemon, and more. It wasn't long before I found myself starting the small hobby back up again. Here's what I've made so far (in order):




( 3 more projects and a rant about Spirit Tracks under the cut! )

I've decided to name this robot character I-1. I like the name, though I might change it later. Since I'm in the process of figuring out the kind of world she lives in, what the characters in that world are like, and its history, I figured I should get around to finally deciding her coloring, since it wouldn't take too long. 40 minutes later, this. I would hope the final combination works well.




Thoughts?


Off Topic: I've noticed that I don't make a lot of comments on other people's journals. This is mainly because I often don't find time between checking blogs, checking video sites, youtube, email, other sketchblogs, twitter, and doing homework. I'm going to try to be a more active friend, though. We'll see how it goes!

Waitin' for 4 to come by. Having people come over to watch Slenderman videos and the final There Will Be Brawl.

Practicing with the tablet again! Another Jasmine, and she looks old again. It's in the eyes, I think. Jasmine's eyes are huge. I make her's small and kind of drowsy looking.



Still working on lighting and shading. I am improving soooooo slowly. *sob*

Also, I accidentally saved it at this size. It was originally a lot bigger.

My tablet has been dead for a little while now. Katie was using it when it started acting funny. I turned it off, and when it turned back on, it just wouldn't connect. It's been out of commission for a good 4 months now. I finally decided to see if  I could fix the problem when, every time I opened photoshop (about a month ago, for some reason) it would remind me with a message basically saying "Um... hi... Photoshop here. Remember Tablet? He was a good person wasn't he. Well, I can't find him any more, and it'd be really great if you could, I don't know, download a new driver or update him or something, b-because I'm really tired of just being used to, you know, scan and resize stuff, NOT THAT THATS A COMPLAINT, I just want something new... so... yeah. Please?"

Long story short (too late) I downloaded the driver (though it didn't work last time? Whatever.), Bluetooth found it, everything worked fine and even photoshop was much less laggy than it had been when the thing stopped working.

I decided to test photoshop and the tablet out for the first time in forever in a more thorough way, and this came out:




I'll make this more apparent later on (Don't be mistaken: this is a sketch post) but I simply cannot draw Jasmine without making her look fairly old. I don't really mind though. I kind of like how she comes out.

( Stuff under here )

Yeah, I haven't posted Friday's or Saturday's hourlies. I was mid way through Friday's when I had some friends come over, and I just barely got started on today's. I have everything written down (what happened when) so I'll try to finish them up, along with maybe a Sunday hourly (though I remember taking Sundays off last year I did this because either my Sundays were never interesting or I just didn't fell like it).

Anyway, I'm tired, so I won't be getting stuff done tonight. Boo.

I'm up this late for YOOOOOOOOU. (Just a warning, this is eeeeeever so slightly NSFW. Slight bit of nudity [no, not mine, an earwax remover's. J...just keep reading.])


( It's a lot of fun to look at the quality spiral downhill when I get home. )

Yeeeeeeeeah, so I've been... pretty inactive on the internet over the last two weeks. This is mainly because I spent about a weeks worth of time away from the computer, the other half week with friends and little opportunity to do much on the computer, and the final half... just... playing Fallout 3 or Sims 3.

But now school is back in session, and I need something to distract from the misery that that school inflicts upon me every weekday from here to June, so the internet is a great distraction. Expect to see more of me on lj and twitter.

But don't expect to see me on dA. I'm pretty much quitting cold turkey on that place, unless I start doing real art again and not just sketches some time soon. The people there just piss me off, and not the ones that interact with me directly, they're mostly nice. You know. Just the other 99.9999% of its users.

Anyway, let's post some sketches, shall we?

(Now I'm lame and didn't scan any of the note sketches drawn over the last semester, so these are, for the most part, moleskine sketches. And there aren't many of them. It's been an unproductive winter break.)


( Click for more! )


Now then, onto something slightly different. It's January, and do you know what January is? That's right, it's hourly comic month! The month where every hour that you're awake of every day of January you draw up a panel or two depicting something that happened or something you thought of within that hour! I forgot for the first four and a half days of January, and made a feeble attempt to get an hourly started today, but really wasn't in the mood, what with it being the first day of school after the break and all. But here're my attempts, about 6 hours worth of material and 12 panels. Hopefully I'll do better in the coming days:




I'm trying to find whatever spirit was in me last year when I did these. Due to a death in the family, I only got about a week in, but I remember deciding to take Sundays off. We'll see if that happens again this year. The style itself is pretty much the exact same as last year. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing.

Hey guys! I'm going off to Dallas to spend Christmas with my aunts. If I get a chance, I'll make a post about the Christmas cookies dad and I make every year, the recipe, technique, and lots of christmassy picture! Plus a small art dump maybe?

( blah blah irl blah )

Well, we're half way through Decemeber, so I think it's time for a sketch... dump? Well no not really. Pile? Heap? Um... Yeah, just, here you go.

I have been drawing throughout the last couple weeks, but most of them are doodles on my notes or homework. Those are things I post at the end of the semester (This weekend, btw) so expect those... soon.




Some marker practice. They're some kind of... Indian Ink markers. Pretty awesome. The scanner messed with this one a bit...

( more sketches and movie reviews under here! )

Gooddness I am busy this week. I have three tests, one that's two part, this week along with a project due in three period, Ahh!, and then finals next week. Ugh. Dead week, what's that?


I am going to go see Princess and the Frog this Friday, along with EVERYONE YOU BETTER GO in 'merica, so I'm excited for that! Plus my parents are going to go out of town this weekend, possibly leaving me behind! This would be the first time they'd leave me home alone for a weekend, which is pretty awesome if I do say so myself. Love being 17.


Would anyone mind if posted a Christmas list, if I get the time? Not as advertisement to my lj friends, but as a link for people interested in what I want who might not have a facebook or what have you. It'd be a real list too, not any of this wish fulfillment fluff that people keep posting. I CANT GET YOU A BOYFRIEND FOR CHRISTMAS, I'M SORRY.


Anyway, sketches this weekend, maybe this week if I get the time, and I gotta get to my next class.

I turned 17 today.

I feel a bit older.

But still not as old as queenanthai HA.

Back to cleaning.

I... I was going to write a journal and then I realized it's really silly and that I can complain all I want but no matter what I will always love the Zelda series in all it's ridiculousness and all the abuse it receives from Nintendo.


I can pretty much sum up my frustrations over the last two hours as Windwaker?Link in Spirit Tracks should not dream of being a master train engineer because he's never seen a train before assuming that he's spent all this time out in the ocean visiting islands too small to have trains, whateverthenextZeldaconsolegameLink should not be right handed despite Nintendo having Wii!TwilightPrincess!Link right handed because now there's no flipping involved and right handed people will get used to the fact that they're playing a left handed character (I'm a firm believer that Link should remain left handed because of canon and because left handed people are sexy), Nintendo makes me sad, Zelda needs to have an orchestral score in the next game or I will cry, Nintendo needs to do to Zelda what it's doing with Metroid and OH MY GOD THERE WILL BE BRAWL YOU ARE THE SADDEST WEB SHOW EVER WHY DID YOU DO THAT?!


I... I really love The Legend of Zelda, okay? And I feel someone ignored by Nintendo, as is pretty much ever 9 out of 10 Nintendo fans. It's not a good time to be a Zelda fan... Even with Spirit Tracks coming out.

I should do homework now.

There's a lot more color in this post than in my usual posts. I can mainly equate this to a friend of mine who I mentioned in my last dump. We sit together in History, she brings paint pens, and we color during the lecture. I take notes, don't worry.

Anyway, the markers she brings are fantastic and the more I use them, the more I LOVE them. They're fantastic and vibrant, go on smoothly and don't seep through the paper or anything.

So in this post are some of my favorite sketches of the week, including some colored sketches that I already posted unfinished.



Morrigan sketch. This was my favorite of the last bunch, and since I already had it scanned, I figured I could experiment with the paint pens. Overall, I like how it came out.

( That ladyfly thing pops up again, so a liiiiiittle bit of nudity. )

And that's what I've done recently :D Heading off to San Antonio for Thanksgiving, coming back to go through a week of hell at school followed by my birthday! Yaaaaay birthdays!