I really don't think I've ever felt so uninspired and down in my life as far as school goes. I've been out for nearly a weeks worth of school days now. The pain from the surgery has died down, but general stress and anxiety keeps me up until very late. I wake up tired and in pain (it's the worst in the morning.)
I missed a lot over the last 6 days, mainly just tests and quizzes. I didn't take any time off to really study - big mistake I'm sure - but being back at school has me feeling so unhappy and worried about every other class and the next few weeks and everything that will be due and everything that's expected of me. To me honest, I'm terrified that my grades are going to tank.
I feel so much more comfortable at home, where I can take things at my own pace. With such freedom, it's to be expected. I almost want to get out of school, take up home schooling. That won't happen though. It's just a thought.
So here I am, back in this little hellhole, exhausted and unprepared, worried for what the week and following weeks will bring. I don't want to do art and I don't want to be active. I just want to go home, curl up in a ball, and sleep until the weekend. Rinse and repeat for the rest of my life.
(Sorry for all the emoing in my recent posts. I've just been feeling so miserable and I need to vent.)
I missed a lot over the last 6 days, mainly just tests and quizzes. I didn't take any time off to really study - big mistake I'm sure - but being back at school has me feeling so unhappy and worried about every other class and the next few weeks and everything that will be due and everything that's expected of me. To me honest, I'm terrified that my grades are going to tank.
I feel so much more comfortable at home, where I can take things at my own pace. With such freedom, it's to be expected. I almost want to get out of school, take up home schooling. That won't happen though. It's just a thought.
So here I am, back in this little hellhole, exhausted and unprepared, worried for what the week and following weeks will bring. I don't want to do art and I don't want to be active. I just want to go home, curl up in a ball, and sleep until the weekend. Rinse and repeat for the rest of my life.
(Sorry for all the emoing in my recent posts. I've just been feeling so miserable and I need to vent.)
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